if my english mark stays like this for hsc... i have officially failed english. i'm srs.  even if i get full marks for trials and hsc... the most i'll get is 89-90 if that...

teehee. im screwed.

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i'm sitting here with anna, king and anton's essay, plus my 3 essays open.  trying to figure out why i can't seem to write a response that reflects how much i actually know about my text.  from what i've noticed about everyone else, i've actually been pretty composed about the trials and the pressure it puts on me didn't really bother me that much. 

until now.

i noticed everytime i've been extremely prepared and studied for an english assessment task really ahead of time, i get 9/15.  the only task i got 14/15 for was something i rushed.  i think i write better responses when i don't think about it and edit it too much.  the more i change an essay, the worse it becomes.  when i stick to the first thing that comes to mind and just write it down without much thought, it seems to make more sense.

i hate this...

bleh. procrastination blog before i start my past paper for 3 unit... mmm i haven't been out all holidays... i feel like a hermit.. wait.. thats not the word for it... meh...

can't wait till i get my new music XD *jumps up and down* hehehe i get bored of songs so easily so my playlist needs constant um.. renewal =P

mapling too much... but still lvl 58. i feel so noob. oh well...

(i have a new esther now *away with the panlid* i traded my tobis for it though... and it has crappy stats... =)

time to start my past paper! wish me luck... i'll need it...

i feel like im dead.  my brain is so tired.  i feel so depressed from not enough social interaction.  staying at home studying all day is so depressing...

mmmm.... i hate being at home all the time.  i'm getting like depressed coz i'm at home by myself 24/7 and all i can do (and have to do) is work.  =(

i don't have anything to say really... my life is so boring that there's nothing to write anymore... -_-  trials suck...  hsc sucks...  being alone sucks...  =(